Editing Brian Wilson (section)

===Onset of illness===
Wilson is diagnosed with [[schizoaffective disorder]] and mild [[bipolar disorder]].{{sfn|Carlin|2006|p=280}} Since 1965, he has regularly experienced [[auditory hallucination]]s in the form of disembodied voices.<ref name="freedom2007">{{cite news|last=Freedom du Lac|first=J.|title=It Wasn't All Fun, Fun, Fun|url=https://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn/content/story/2007/11/30/ST2007113001361.html|date=December 2, 2007|access-date=June 30, 2013|newspaper=The Washington Post}}</ref> Wilson referred to the voices as "heroes and villains" that contributed to "a life of scare".{{sfn|Kent|2009|p=72}}

His family and associates faced challenges in discerning genuine mental health issues from potential manipulative behavior on Wilson's part.{{sfn|Gaines|1986|p=248}} Subsequent to his Houston flight incident from December 1964, Marilyn arranged his first psychiatrist visit, where it was ruled that Wilson's condition was due to work-related fatigue.{{sfn|Wilson|Gold|1991|pp=110–111}} Wilson typically refused counseling, and his family believed his idiosyncrasies stemmed from drug habits or were innate to his personality.{{sfn|Gaines|1986|pp=191, 277–278}}{{sfn|Carlin|2006|p=171}}{{refn|group=nb|Gaines goes on to write that Brian receiving "intense psychiatric care in a hospital setting" would have been perceived as "an admission of defeat and an embarrassment" to his bandmates.{{sfn|Gaines|1986|p=278}}  Carlin recounted an episode where a friend from Wilson's childhood days visited him and observed him as being "detached from reality". Wilson's family seemed "less sympathetic than confused and, it's hard not to conclude, resentful."{{sfn|Carlin|2006|p=171}} }} Marilyn countered accusations of neglect on her part, emphasizing her repeated efforts to get him professional help.{{sfn|Granata|2003|p=57}}

According to Wilson, he was introduced to recreational drugs by an acquaintance during a Beach Boys tour.<ref name="Oui" />{{refn|group=nb|In his memoir, Love wrote of an incident in which he had discovered drug paraphernalia in Wilson's hotel room during a tour stop in Texas in the early 1960s. Love was unsure of the drug contents, although it was certainly not marijuana, and he did not confront Wilson about the matter.{{sfn|Love|2016|p=105}} }} His hallucinations emerged early in 1965, about a week after his first time using psychedelics.<ref>{{cite web|title=Brian Wilson – A Powerful Interview|url=http://abilitymagazine.com/past/brianW/brianw.html |work=Ability Magazine |first1=Chet |last1=Cooper |first2=Gillian|last2=Friedman}}</ref> Loren Schwartz, his supplier, said that Wilson's first dosage was 125 micrograms of "pure [[Owsley Stanley|Owsley]]" and resulted in "full-on [[ego death]]".{{sfn|Carlin|2006|pp=174–175}}{{refn|group=nb|Brian remembered taking the LSD at his home,<ref name="Boucher2007"/> but according to Marilyn, he took the drug elsewhere with Schwartz.{{sfn|Gaines|1986|p=133}} By her recollection, he returned home the next day and recounted his experience, telling her repeatedly that his "mind was blown" and that he had seen God.{{sfn|Gaines|1986|pp=133–134}}}}  Mike Love observed signs of irregular behavior in Wilson by July, recalling an incident where Wilson deliberately crashed his car, an act Love deemed out of character.{{sfn|Love|2016|p=125}} His drug use was initially concealed from his bandmates and family,{{sfn|Gaines|1986|p=126}} including Love, who had thought Wilson to be strictly opposed to drugs.{{sfn|Love|2016|p=105}}

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|quote=[In mid-1965, Brian had] asked me to come down to Studio B. When we got down there, he said to me, "Let me play something that I hear when I've been on LSD." He sat down at the piano and played one note. He described what he was hearing. That's when I knew he was in trouble.
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Wilson, in 1990, attributed LSD to his developing "a [[Messiah complex|Jesus Christ complex]]" in the mid-1960s.{{sfn|Holdship|1997|p=212}} Following the advice of Four Freshmen manager Bill Wagner, Wilson consulted with a [[UCLA]] psychiatrist on the adverse effects of LSD. The psychiatrist later told Wagner, "I don't know if he is savable. He gives me the impression he's been on it for a while, and he's entirely enamored of it."{{sfn|Granata|2003|p=56}} By 1966, Wilson acknowledged using "pills" for introspection rather than leisure and viewed psychedelic usage as benign.{{sfn|Granata|2003|p=55}} His 2016 memoir states that he abstained from consuming LSD for a second time until he was 23, around 1966 or 1967.{{sfn|Wilson|Greenman|2016|p=169}} Marilyn suspected he had numerous LSD experiences in the ensuing years, although she only knew of two such incidents at the time.{{sfn|Gaines|1986|p=134}} Ledbetter, in 2004, claimed Wilson had taken LSD only thrice in his life.<ref name="LK2004" />{{refn|group=nb|[[Micky Dolenz]] recalled an occasion in the 1970s where he took LSD with Wilson, Harry Nilsson, and John Lennon in Malibu. Dolenz said that Wilson "played just one note on a piano over and over again" for the duration.<ref>{{cite book|last1=Dolenz|first1=Micky|last2=Bego|first2=Mark|title=I'm a Believer|date=2004|publisher=Cooper Square Press|location=New York|isbn=978-0-81541-284-7|pages=177–178}}</ref> }}

As Wilson's condition worsened, he grew susceptible to [[paranoid delusion]]s, believing that his auditory hallucinations were [[Satan]] coming "in the form of other people that were competing with me and had ideas of killing me."{{sfn|Badman|2004|p=330}} By 1968, following the birth of their first child, Marilyn's concerns about Wilson's mental health intensified.{{sfn|Gaines|1986|p=184}} Wilson was hospitalized later that year and prescribed [[Thorazine]] for severe [[anxiety disorder]].<ref name="Bedroom2014" /> He may have self-admitted and possibly received treatments ranging from [[talking therapies]] to doses of [[lithium (medication)|lithium]] and [[electroconvulsive therapy]] during this stay.{{sfn|Carlin|2006|p=141}}